Gabe was telling me that he wanted me to get him some camo for his birthday. I showed him an advertisement for a swiss army knife. he thought it was pretty cool, but he said it would be better if it had a fork. i told him i would get him some silverware. i told him i would be on the lookout for some gear too, but if i knew where to find some inexpensive camo gear. i would have bought some already.
There was a family event of some sort going on at value view. I was still driving my grand am gt. I gave bethany a ride, and we stopped and grabbed a snack at the gas station. When I got to my family event I noticed bill o’reilly was there. Not as some kind of celebrity, but just like he belonged their. He was going to go into town for something. I wanted to go. I was sitting there talking to some of my relatives, and I noticed I didn’t have my wallet on me. For some reason, I thought I would find it in Bill’s truck. Next thing I know, Bill is about to go without me. I didn’t care that much except that I wanted to see if my wallet was in his truck. I caught up to him, and got in. I quickly realized my wallet was not in the truck. Now I was pissed that I went, because I wouldn’t be able to relax until I found my wallet. I figured it must be in the car, because that was the last time I had it. Even so, I could not relax. As we kept going I just started thinking, fuck it, I’ve lost my wallet before, and no catastrophe happened if I lose it this time it still won’t have a major impact on my live even though I had a hundred in some dollars in cash in wallet. I felt a certain amount of freedom with that realization, but it did feel kind of contrived.
